Aura-Okumura

there isn't much to meh...
im boring, sure, but im a great person to be around...
ill be shy and all but once I get to know you better im the most craziest person you've ever met :)
my past is really dark but thanks to my boyfriend and my best friend (wont give out names) they've been helping me out and now I cant stop smiling and having happy thoughts...im really glad to have people like them around me its makes me feel love...
I never really had much of a family...my mom left my dad when I was 4 and my brother was 6 months old...my dad tried to kill my brother...reason unknown but im glad we don't have to deal with him no more...
when I moved to sask. Canada I was bullied a lot...didn't have any friends or anyone to trust...once I got into grade 6 I had enough and I went to a teacher to talk...I felt a little better knowing I had someone to talk to when I was scared or hurt...soon enough the principle wanted me to talk to the younger student about standing up for yourself...I enjoyed it...one day a group of girls decided it be fun to push me around at lunch...everyone just watched and laughed...I had enough...I was sick of it all...I closed my eyes tightly and once I opened them the teacher was yelling at me as the girl lied on the ground bleed...I was scared and confused as to what had happened so I ran home... (theres more but I cant remember much)
after that year I started to forget everything from the day before and it still happens when I want it too...
when I got to grade 8 (yes they still let me at school but I had to be around the teachers) I met a girl...she was getting picked on like I was so when the teacher where doing something else I snuck over to where she was and told everyone to back off...everyone but me remember that day atm...they started to call me a freak so I clenched my fist getting really annoyed and they stepped back...I was confused as to why they stepped back but I didn't care it made me feel strong...they all walked away and the girl thanked me...ever since then me and her have been the best of friends
in grade 9 I felt proud of how far ive gotten till one day...remember that girl I punched out or something? yeah well she goes to the same high school as me...she started to pick on me and my friend...she pissed me off so badly that I pinned her against a wall yelling at her to shut up and leave us alone...I wanted to laugh when she flinched...she reminded me of that day and I started to shake till my friend pulled me away...ever since ive started to cut myself...and I kinda enjoyed it...till I met my bf...at the moment we were kinda friends...the first time he ever spoke to me was in the halls when I was taking my pants off (had shorts under them) I was so embarrassed but bubbly on the inside that he spoke to me...
soon enough my friends (other one is just a person I knew from when I was 3) where hanging out with him and so I came by acting all shy and trying to flirt...if anyone asks I think I did a pretty good job at it >.< ...after that my friends started to tease me cuz they knew I liked him...we started to hang out more and I was kinda ditching my friends just to be near him...I kinda feel bad but not at the same time you know?...well anywhere we were handing out at the library one time and I cant remember much but I do remember our first kiss...I was really happy and we started to go out...
its now been a year that weve been together and I regret nothing...

I HAVE A GREAT BEST FRIEND AND A WONDERFUL BOYFRIEND!!!
THIS IS MY NEW LIFE AND I LOVE IT!!!! <3